Leaving for Korea in ten days?!
This feeling of "excitement-anxiety-doom-intellectual curiosity-leaving the pond-I'm going to take over S. Korea" has grown ever stronger.
I have packed everything. Well, not everything I own but a little bit of everything that I have used for the past three years. I have managed to pack ten pairs of shoes, undies, three suits, countless dresses and skirts and my favorite T-shirts. I have also thought to bring art supplies and school supplies. I also wrapped my favorite kitchen utensils and handmade ceramic plates. Do I really need to bring a box of pens? I know I can get everything there or mailed to me with an order from the Internet. So why the need to over-pack?
I am trying to spend every minute with friends. Any reason for me to hang out and just be around them I have enjoyed and can't believe how lucky/blessed I am to have such awesome friends. They all can't wait for me to leave but hate the idea of me not being home. I have invited everyone to Korea and hope at least three of my friends can make it out for a quick visit.
Family time has been harder to manage- Dad and brother out to sea, other brother spending time with a girlfriend that goes to school overseas, and a mom with health issues, ready for a career change. I did get some time to see my NYC family and I will eventually make it to see family in NC. For as much as I can't stand being around my mom at times, I want her move in with me or at least visit me often staying for a couple weeks.
My biggest worries
This feeling of "excitement-anxiety-doom-intellectual curiosity-leaving the pond-I'm going to take over S. Korea" has grown ever stronger.
I have packed everything. Well, not everything I own but a little bit of everything that I have used for the past three years. I have managed to pack ten pairs of shoes, undies, three suits, countless dresses and skirts and my favorite T-shirts. I have also thought to bring art supplies and school supplies. I also wrapped my favorite kitchen utensils and handmade ceramic plates. Do I really need to bring a box of pens? I know I can get everything there or mailed to me with an order from the Internet. So why the need to over-pack?
I am trying to spend every minute with friends. Any reason for me to hang out and just be around them I have enjoyed and can't believe how lucky/blessed I am to have such awesome friends. They all can't wait for me to leave but hate the idea of me not being home. I have invited everyone to Korea and hope at least three of my friends can make it out for a quick visit.
Family time has been harder to manage- Dad and brother out to sea, other brother spending time with a girlfriend that goes to school overseas, and a mom with health issues, ready for a career change. I did get some time to see my NYC family and I will eventually make it to see family in NC. For as much as I can't stand being around my mom at times, I want her move in with me or at least visit me often staying for a couple weeks.
My biggest worries
- not being around my heart, friends and family
- not having enough money
- not passing the drug test in Korea
- not learning enough Korean
- not having what I need to live in Korea
- not having my guy around
- getting a Google number
- figuring out how to use my phone, Skype and other technologies
- asking money from family
- not taking any meds for the next two weeks (which then creates more anxiety in my life)
- overdosing on the amount of time a spend with friends
- knowing that if it meant to be, he will visit in Korea and/or be ready for open arms when I come back
- just praying that Korean will just pop in my brain and reveal to me that I am a genius or I lived knowing Korean in a past life
- packing and unpacking and repacking
- YOGA
- eating great food
- being in a beautiful country
- learning how to speak Korean
- learning about the education system(s)
- technology
- saving up money
- being on my own
- meeting new people
- being close to the Philippines
- partying with friends on the beach and get-togethers at their houses
- learning Korean
- finishing my on-line orientation class
- making a list
No comments:
Post a Comment